Following
up on some ideas (dangerous things) and being unable to leave well enough
alone (even more dangerous..), here
this is.
I’ve indulged the foolish impulse to meddle with the status quo where Lasciate
Ogne Speranza concluded to produce
this little
horror, but it should be able to stand on its own. Happy reading, and as
always, comments are welcome...
Lev
Spoilers: Up to MtD, maybe. And Lasciate.
Disclaimers:
I’m not even getting peanuts for working on this. Characters belong to
Anne Rice, Random House and
whoever else
lays claim to them. I’m not taking part in custody battles.
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Who is it?
I turn, faster than any mortal could, but there is no one there. And yet
I feel it, the unmistakeable sense of being
watched.
It is an instinct you hone when your survival has depended on it for centuries.
I am not wrong.
It has been
going on for some weeks now, this intermittent awareness of someone else
lurking just behind me, trailing me as
I stalk my
prey or just move through the city in my nocturnal activities. I am not
used to sharing the shadows.
I do not feel
fear, only frustration, and my next victim knows it. As I let him fall
cold from my grasp, his gurgling cries still
ringing in
my ears, I sense it again, that other presence. I whirl around, hands tensed
into claws, ready to face this wretch
who has guaranteed
him or herself a very painful, messy death.
Nobody.
I snarl at
the shadows, but they are disappointingly empty.
Back to the
job of disposing of the body. Despite this..annoying situation, I cannot
be as boorishly untidy as that. Etiquette.
One simply
does not leave one’s waste lying around, even in this circumstance. Such
carelessness also provokes inquiries,
unnecessarily
predisposing one to being hunted for, if not found. An inconvenience I
can do without.
There now,
is a thought. Am I being hunted? Who would dare? Rogue vampire, I would
have suspected once, but I believe
that breed
is extinct now, exterminated by Akasha’s flaming will. Talamasca? I have
yet to come into contact with them
personally,
but what have I to worry about? What are they but mere mortals dabbling
in witchcraft and the mystical, with
no concept
of what they are really dealing with?
But do I underestimate
them? From Lestat’s accounts of them, they are a pervasive..organisation
is the word for it. A
clandestine
group with complex hierarchies, history, and an unrevealed objective.
It is curious,
actually, that I have not encountered them before, given that they are
apparently well enough aware of Marius
and Armand
to possess his triptych. Perhaps I escaped their surveillance because of
the scarcity of my prolonged
associations
with mortals, or even other vampires since I took my leave of the coven.
So I have
had a few more encounters with other vampires of late. And I have been
bored enough to seek some amusement
from playing
with my food. Have I finally “showed up on their radar”, to borrow a modern
expression? Are they trying
frantically
to fill the vast gaps in their dossier “Santino”? I wonder if they do interviews.
We will see
how much patience I have for this game. Not much, I suspect. And when it
runs out… Woe betide the poor
would-be
detective who will discover first-hand that the tales of the Vampire Santino
hold only a fraction of the terror of
the truth.
I am usually kind enough to leave my victims whole and dead, like this
one, but oh, what I can do with the other
options...
My apartment is not soundproofed because I enjoy singing in the shower.
Part 2
hwarted fury. I know before
I initiate the spin that I will face only an empty alleyway. There, the
parallel shadows, draped
over brick
and bitumen, and I have sent only trashcans flying. This no longer holds
potential for amusement, and has become
something
of an annoyance. For some nights now, I have been compelled to forsake
the comfort of my apartment because I felt
the intruder’s
presence as I was about to return home to rest.
I have had
to reconsider the nature of this..irritant. That I can detect no fleeing
mortal presence puts in doubt the initial
suspicion
that I am dealing with the Talamasca. Even a very skilled mortal cannot
match the power of the Dark Gift. Unlikely.
I then come
to the supposition that I am loath to make; it must be another vampire,
and since there are only a small number of
us left,
it must be one of those I already know.
The first
motive that comes to mind is Revenge. Although Marius and I were on..non-hostile
terms when we last met, I have
known it
to be an uneasy peace. What passed between us was not some playground spat,
to be forgotten when recess is over. He
will never
forgive me. I have no illusions about that. But the question is, could
something have pushed him over the edge,
demolished
the restraints on his stifled resentment? I studied the accounts of him
before we embarked on our mission of
destruction,
but I have known little of him since. He may have been a noble lord once,
but such roles are transient. Games
played to
satisfy mortal sensibilities and pacify them while we feed our dark hungers.
What is he now? He has recovered his
child now,
but things are not the same.
Armand.. Could
it be? The child I stole has long since grown up, and possibly his appetite
for vengeance as well. But surely he
must know
that in my own way, I loved him. Although I made him into someone else
in the process…
Or does vigilante
justice explain my torment? An outsider looking to pay me back on behalf
of the wronged parties? Daniel
cannot possibly
have the power. How potent is Armand’s virgin blood?
I cannot believe
Pandora would do this, though she holds Marius dear enough to carry it
out for his sake. I would like to think
that I am
well enough acquainted with her for her to spare me this. More than deceiving
others, I excel at deceiving myself. A
sullen trek
through a frozen wasteland together compared with a love she waited decades
of her mortal life to marry. Of course
I would win
her favour from the pillar of marble and virtue. It does not make sense
for her to have waited this long before
carrying
out her punishment though.
It is ridiculous,
this baseless guessing. I have yet to verify anything, conclude anything.
I am still on the street, still on edge. I
must know
what this is, why this is. I want it out of my life, and I will do whatever
it takes to be rid of it.
Part 3
riven to yet another hotel
room by what I still know only as the unwelcome presence. Granted, I am
not living in squalor
or sub-humanly
cramped conditions, but this is still very much an experience I can do
without.
So I resort
to what I am..reluctant to do, to say the least. I ask for their help because
I have no choice. I cannot be certain that
I will get
help, or if I will even be heard out, but in this circumstance, I cannot
not try.
Priorities,
I must remind myself. Peace before pride.
I lift the
receiver of the telephone. Sleek white, plastic, and a throwaway lightweight.
Nothing like the comfortable weight of
the antique
telephone I have in my home, but it is better than the brown monstrosity
sitting at the bedside table of
yesterday’s
room.
I put my misgivings
on hold and dial the number listed in my address book, the number I have
never used. I prefer this
method of
contact. It is less abrupt, less intrusive, and I hope it gives less away.
International
number. The hotel is going to charge me a small fortune for this call.
I shall just have to make another one
over the
next few nights.
The repetitive
ring is put to an end by a click from the other side.
“Hello?” Clipped
British tones greet me.
“David?” My
voice with its accents must be as distinctive to him as his are to me,
but can he place it? We are barely
acquainted,
have hardly spoken to each other on the rare occasions of the “Night Island
coven” gathering, of which there
have been
perhaps two since his rebirth into darkness. “This is-“
“Santino.”
We simultaneously complete the identifier. He does know who I am after
all. And he pronounced my name
correctly
as well.
“How are you?”
Lovely, his automatic politeness, in no way condescending. I expected the
gruff demand of “what do you
want”, but
I like this better. The problem now is how to answer that innocent question.
Words must be carefully chosen. I
cannot sound
too desperate.
“Santino?”
“I am well,
David,” I try to cover the searching lapse quickly. “I called because there
are some things I have to ask you.”
This, instead
of the truth of “I need your help”.
“Go on,” he
answers affably.
I hesitate.
Now that I have gotten this far, where do I go from here?
“Has Lestat
been up to any trouble lately?” Not that I really suspect him of anything,
but I am taking wild stabs in the
dark. I start
at anything that remotely resembles a target.
Laughter from
the other end of the line. “Is he ever not up to mischief?”
“I suppose
it goes against all his principles,” I reply, trying to return a little
of the lightness to cover up the fact that
something
is amiss. “Is he with you?”
“Upstairs.
Would you like to speak to him?”
“No, it’s
alright.” Do I think Louis capable of such a thing? No. But will I ask?
I am compelled to. “Is Louis there?”
“Not at the
moment, but he should be back within the hour. Do you have a message for
him?”
“No.” I can
hear him wondering where I am going with this. “Do you know where Marius
is?”
“Hong Kong,
when I last heard.”
Click.
David is still
on the line, but I did not need the hum of his voice for confirmation.
The sound came from another source.
New shadows
fall across my feet. As I turn to look over my shoulder, the door swings
open smoothly.
“Three strikes, and you’re out.”
Part 4
almost drop the receiver.
Impossible.
Well, this
saves me one concern. It is definitely not the Talamasca.
“At a loss,
Coven Master? Don’t keep your friend waiting.”
The airy gesture
reaches across the room and miles of telephone cable to where David must
be reclining in his own leather
armchair
in Lestat’s pleasant little refurbished Rue Royale flat, and casually dismisses
him.
“Coven Master”.
I have not been addressed as such for a long time, but it is dripping with
cool disdain rather than properly
reverential
or fearful.
Words pour
out of the telephone, but I cannot comprehend the sounds. Is he expressing
concern? Some part of our brain
enables us
to grasp meaning beyond the cumbersome impediments of language. But now
is not the time to marvel at the
divinity
of the human construct. I have the devil on my doorstep and an angel at
my ear. In a manner of speaking. The angel
will have
to go.
“David? I
apologise for cutting this short, but I have..a visitor.” Giveaway statement.
What visitors do vampires have?
Particularly
one of my insular persuasion, who does not frolic with mortals. With his
enhanced hearing, he must have
heard the
voice ring through the room.
He says nothing.
Is he waiting for me to continue? Listening for more clues? He knows nothing
yet. Although perhaps I
wish he did,
to tell me what to make of this situation.
Ah, Santino,
you have lost your edge.
“Thank you
for your help.” I can sense him wondering what I could have gained from
his answers, what motive I conceal.
Suspicion,
so naturally human, is second nature to us as well.
“Glad to have
been of assistance,” he says finally, voice giving no hint of this.
“Lestat and
Louis do not need to know I called.”
“Lestat likes
to hear of people taking an interest in him.”
To ask him
again to keep this to himself will be to mark this exchange for even more
attention. The uninvited guest
patiently
occupying my doorway reminds me that I do not have time to argue.
“As you wish,
David. Goodbye.” Was that too abrupt? I have always detested the rituals
of social niceties. They make
interactions
too complex, and are the breeding grounds of resentment.
With the telephone
receiver back in its cradle, there is nothing else to distract me. No other
excuses. I rise from the seat.
“Are you going to come in?”
Part 5
Casual saunter
in, not even watching me. Enough of that over the past weeks?
“You are living
your life very differently now.”
Am I being
mocked?
“What are
you doing here? What are you doing..alive?”
“I came for
the pleasure of your company, and unfortunately, I found Death a little
harder to come by.”
I am tempted
to offer to help, but I hold my tongue. It is too soon to antagonise him.
There is much more I need to know.
“Have you
been following me?”
A guileless
shrug. “I had to know what you had become before coming to you. Such tales
drifted about Europe.. That you
had gone
mad, that you deserted the Old Order, that you torched it all in some fit
of vengeance. And the reasons all garbled
by the surviving
children of disorder, too long in confusion by the time I returned.”
Is he going
to rebuke me for dropping the proverbial ball? For letting what he worked
so hard to build up and maintain
crumble away..
The hopes, the efforts invested in me.. In all those stories, has he heard
anything of the greatness I raised the
coven to
before I abandoned it? Our glorious, dark era, when all of Europe, and
even those places beyond it, trembled at
mere thoughts
of the faint hiss of our breath, the rustle of our dusty black rags.. Why
do I take pride in this now? It means
nothing to
either of us.
“Did you try
to resurrect the coven?” Of the deluge of questions coming to me, this
seems the most immediately relevant, so I
voice it
first.
Another shrug,
this time guiltless. “Why would I?”
So he had
left them lost, leaderless, though he knew that without guidance, they
were aimless scavengers. It briefly slipped
my mind that
he had filled his role out of a sense of duty rather than devotion.
How would
he have reclaimed leadership though? Who remained who would recognise him?
I hope that my face is
forgotten.
Which brings me to something else I really should ask.
“When did
you rise?”
My own speculations
lead me to an estimate of perhaps a few months, just enough for him to
recover himself and learn to
find his
way around this new world. With that sleep suit draped on his form, I would
have to guess he has found himself
firm footing.
What brought
him back? Something must always draw us, catch our attention and lure us
out of Death’s embrace. It may
be the slightest,
most trivial thing. The sounds of screeching guitars. The scent of spring.
A spark of
realisation. Did I do it? With my decision to revisit the past, did I,
in the course of it, somehow disturb his
slumber?
Did my thoughts burrow through the layers of earth, rousing him from where
he should have remained buried?
Thoughts
of his name alone, the phonetic pattern that no one else would have recalled..
Rinier.
“Some months
ago,” he says, fingering the service catalogue on the table.
So I was right.
What am I to do with him, this newly awakened child cast into a world not
his own?
Eyes lifting
from the folder, as if he can read my thoughts, he looks straight at me,
and adds “This time.”
“This time,”
I echo, awaiting an elaboration.
“This time,”
he throws back. Are we playing mind games again? I have yet to find that
he is capable of being
straightforward.
Part 6
“You rose
before this,” I ask, trying for simpler answers.
“A number
of times.”
Did I detect
a slight pause before his reply? Is he being careful with his answers?
Does he have some aim in mind that he is
steering
me toward?
“I am not
as naively lost in this as you believe.” He arches an eyebrow at me.
Impossible.
Centuries have passed. My powers have grown stronger. I am more in control
of myself. Or was. And yet.. Can
he read my
thoughts?
“No.”
The whirlwind
of impulses leaves me staring at his half-smile. Does he know of my mistrust
already? What should I
conceal from
him? How do I conceal anything from him? I am shielding, and yet he has
evaded my defences. I must pull
myself together,
marshal my fleeing thoughts better than this.
It is a struggle
to regain my calm, but I have had ample practice. Through this inner tumult,
he watches me calmly,
enigmatic
expression unchanging.
I wait for
him to make the next move. The situation is obviously in his control.
“I’m not reading
your thoughts,” he says, after letting me torment myself in the silence.
“Your expressions make things
clear enough.”
With that,
he sends me hurtling in another direction. He cannot trawl my mind after
all? I am not subject to his scrutiny?
Do I believe
this declaration? Or has he just said it to quiet me? How is it that he
still has such power over me despite all
else I have
been through, all else I have overcome? His presence makes me uneasy, and
it is not due to some male ego battle
to establish
superiority. It goes deeper than that. On a very fundamental level, I do
not trust him. How can I? After
everything
he has done..
He leans back
in the chair, and an eerie superimposition strikes me. Seven hundred years
fall away, and he is doing the
exact same
thing with the same deliberate smoothness of motion in his torchlit chamber
as he receives news of the
new..recruits.
As in characteristic of us, he is unchanged in appearance, except that
he is no longer dirt-smudged and in
tatters,
but deftly groomed in a manner that highlights his predatory nature. I
have never seen him with anything other
than tangled
hair and ill-fitting clothes, but I am struck by how well he has taken
to the look of this time.
“The world
has changed a great deal,” he says with a trace of lament, startling me
again. Is it mere coincidence that he has
chosen this
topic, or did he take it from my mind?
“The children
of the night are gone,” he continues, either ignoring my disquiet or unaware
of it. How do I tell? “The old
ruins that
were always place of refuge and home to some of the renegades, or the reticent
ones, house only ghosts now.
Empty and
silent. Death truly has taken residence there. What has become of them
all?”