ࡱ Posted by Denise P on August 01, 1998 This is for enjoyment only and is not meant to infringe on anyone's rights. Friends ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- * memories * ~ mental talk ~ 1 < Louis > Louis sits in a trash filled alley. His sobs can be heard as they well up from his chest. He is feeling more wretched than he had in years. David had left for England 2 days ago. Lestat was out of sorts, and as always when he was upset he became cruel and vicious. With no one else to take it out on Louis caught the brunt. Only this time was worse then ever , at least it felt that way. Louis did not know how much more he was expected to take, he was already tired from Lestat and David's constant fighting. Louis closes his eyes and tries to resist the scene rising up before his eyes. Pain ripped through his chest as they over came him. * Louis had woken slowly. He laid in the bed for a short time just listening to the night around him. He finally got up and dressed to go down stairs. As he reached the foyer he could hear the latest in many fights raging between David and Lestat. Lately all they did was fight, David demanded his freedom to do as he wanted, while Lestat tried to force him to his will. Louis feeling he could take no more of their fighting decided he would slip out and hunt maybe they would be calmed down before he got back. Louis hunted and wandered around New Orleans for a while. Close to dawn he had no choice but to go home. Listening closely he slipped quietly into the house. No sound came to him as he entered the house. Carefully he went into the parlor. Lestat sat alone in what remained of the furniture. "David has left." That was all Lestat said before striding out of the room. Louis had not known what to do and as dawn was already weighing down his limbs he had retired to his room, only slightly worried about how Lestat would react to David's leaving. He awoke the next night to Lestat leaning over him. The cover had been pulled away and his clothing removed. Louis felt his face flush. He quickly jerked the covers up over himself. "Lestat what are you doing," Louis glared up at his maker. Lestat grinned down at him. "Wondering how you would react if I climbed in beside you. Ah, but we know don't we? My icy beauty," Lestat's lips brushed his ears as he leaned down to whisper. "Lestat what has gotten into you? Really this is too much." Louis made to get up and leave only to be shoved back against the sheets. Lestat held him down using his the weight of his body to hold him there. "What will you do now, my dear? Run out on me as every one else does. In fact, have you not done that repeatedly already?" Louis could see the cruel glint in Lestat's eyes as he spoke. "Lestat, please, I am not trying to leave I only want to dress." Louis pressed his hands against Lestat's chest as he spoke. Louis looked pleadingly up into Lestat's eyes. With a cruel grin Lestat let go and turning on his heel, left. Not bothering to close the door behind him. Louis hated when Lestat acted this way. He only did it to prove he could do what ever he wanted whether Louis liked it or not. After he had left, Louis rose, showered, dressed and went out to hunt. He did not think to tell Lestat and was unprepared for the violent reaction he received on returning. As Louis came in the door, Lestat grabbed him by the arms shaking him. "Where have you been? You think you can slip out and in my life with no regard to how I feel?" Louis stared at him in shock." Lestat I only went to hunt." Lestat did not even seem to notice Louis talking as he continued to rant shaking him every so often. Louis only caught snatches as his head flopped back and forth. "You are selfish...always you want to leave...love books more than me." Louis's head fell back sharply as Lestat slapped him. "You want to leave then get out." Louis found himself slamming into a tree in the front lawn. Louis stood there for a while in shock not knowing what to do. After a few minutes he wandered away down the street. He slept in an old burned out warehouse that day. What had happened did not register till the next night and that is why Louis was sitting alone in an alley.* --------------------------------------------------------- 2 When his tears had dried up Louis tried to think of what he could do. Slowly he stood and began to wander. Out through the city, and on to the country. Louis had no thoughts as he walked only an emptiness where his heart had been. He went on like this for many days, not feeding, not thinking, and not feeling. This was the first time since their reunion that Lestat had told him to leave. Louis still had bruises from the rough treatment , he had received ,at Lestat`s hands. Slowly his past became blurry and undefined, until one day he awoke in an old, abandoned, farm house wondering who the man looking out of the mirror was. Trying very hard to think who he was, he shied away when he encountered only a wall of pain. A great burning hunger over came him as he walked. Up ahead he saw a car parked off the side of the road. Inside a young couple sat clutching each other closely. He silently slipped up on them, reaching in through the window he snatched the boy out and plunged his fangs in to receive the warm hot life flowing just below the surface. Letting the boy drop he ran after the girl who had fled into the wood terrified. In moments she to went to her final slumber. Still dazed by the swoon he started off toward the road. Walking slowly he traveled seeing only cars passing. The few that stoped were found abandoned, their owner a few feet away mutilated by the night stalker, or so the newspapers had dubbed him. The extra blood allowed Louis to heal physically, until only his beauty was left to see. He watched as a dark blue car pulled up along side of him. The window rolled down to reveal a young man with dark brown hair and soft luminous, golden eyes. "Hi, need a ride?" Louis was surprised that no anger filled him; no urge to hurt. "Thank you," Louis slipped into the car. He watched as they pulled out on to the road. "Where are you headed?" The young man asked. "I don't know," Louis smiled as he spoke. He could feel the desire coming from his companion. "Well what is your name?" He smiled wondering what would happen if his passenger knew how attractive he found him. Earlier Louis had found a ring with the inscription , To Louis, with love, "I will tell you I think it may be Louis but I am not sure." Louis felt the pain again as he spoke. "Well my name is Jarred." Louis could feel that he was confused and puzzled. "Are you all right?" Jarred's eyes finally noticed the blood covering Louis, he had been so taken with his face that this was the first time he had looked at the rest of him. Louis looked down at himself. "I don't know." First he looked helplessly in to Jarred's eyes then without knowing why he felt tears welling up. Louis buried his face in his arms as a flood of tears poured out. "I just don't know. Please help me I can't remember any thing at all." Jarred took one look at Louis and lost his heart and soul to him. "It's OK I'll help you." As Jarred wrapped his arm around him, keeping the other on the wheel ,it occurred to Louis what a good thing it was that his shirt sleeve had soaked up all the blood tears as he relaxed against the hard chest. "I will take you home with me." Jarred began to rub Louis's arm , with the hand that was draped across his shoulders, gently as he spoke. Louis felt a little fearful and uncertain , but he was reassured when he glanced into the warm golden eyes. Jarred felt his chest tighten at the fear in those green eyes. "Don't be upset. We are almost to my house. We will talk about it in the morning." Jarred smiled down at him as he spoke. Louis looked up as they pulled into the yard. It was a large 2 story house. Louis felt his limbs getting heavy, this was when he went in the ground, but he did not resist as Jarred lifted him to carry him into the house. Jarred took him into a bed room and placed him on the bed. He pulled the drapes shut as the sun rose and closed the door as he left to go to his own bed. --------------------------------------------------------- 3 Late the next night when Jarred woke up he thought of his house guest right away. As he went into the extra bed room, to put away his suitcase, he was shocked at how gorgeous man lying on the bed was. He stood there for a long time just staring at him. Louis awoke slowly. As he lay there considering the man standing at the foot of the bed holding an arm full of suitcases. Louis felt surprise at the emotions he felt coming from him, a mixture of lust, confusion , desire , and guilt. After about 10 minutes he realized that Jarred thought him still asleep. Jarred looked as though he could devour him alive . Louis could feel the mixed emotions coming from him , lust warred with his need not to scare Louis. Louis decided to see how he would react to an invitation to join him in some play. Slowly he sat up looking right into Jarred's eyes. He began to slowly unbutton his shirt and let it slide into a pile on the floor. Louis noticed that Jarred's eyes were following his every move. Smiling softly, Louis slid his pants down over his hips and dropped them to join the shirt on the floor. Louis walked over to Jarred and wrapped his arms around his neck and leaned in to whisper into his ear. "Want to help me get washed up." Louis let his mouth brush against the smooth, strong column of Jared's throat. Jarred felt the breath catch in his throat at the cool touch of Louis's lips. Quickly he brought his arms up to encircle Louis's small waist. Pulling Louis hard against him he brought his mouth down in a desperate kiss. As the kiss deepened, Jarred let his hands explore the smooth skin along Louis's back and hips. Jarred was too lost in the taste, feel, and smell, of Louis to notice when he slipped his fangs in. Suddenly Louis jerked out of his arms and turned his back to him. Louis had to fight hard to resist the urge to take him completely. Jarred was appalled at what he had done, in his confused state he felt that it was his fought as though he had attacked Louis , he should have never let things get so caught up , now Louis was upset. After all this was a guest in his home and clearly confused , and not able to make his own decisions. "Louis I am sorry. Please don't be upset." Jarred reached out to lay his hand against Louis's shoulder. He felt even worse when he felt the soft tremors coursing through Louis. Louis could not look at him till after he had stomped down the hunger clawing at him. Stomping down his hunger Louis turned back to Jarred. "I am not upset. I did not want to stain your clothes." Louis let his hand caress the already ruined shirt front. Louis could almost see Jarred latch on to this. Jarred had been so busy looking at his exquisite features that he had not noticed the blood stained shirt until now. Louis hoped he would not have to explain his shirt , the blood was from his tears the evening before. "Well are you going to show me to the shower." Louis teased Jared's flat nipples through the fabric of his shirt. After babbling incoherently for a minute, Jarred got his voice under control. "It's through there." He gasped out, pointing to a door in the far wall. It was so hard to think with Louis so close. His slightest touch left him dumbfounded. Louis turned going into the bathroom. He grasped Jarred's hand to pull him along. In the bath room Louis undressed Jarred touching him as he went . It was easy to see the pleasure Jarred felt from this. Louis felt a memory rise of being touched this way, he knew that he had not welcomed that touch. When he tried to latch on to the memory it slipped away. Jarred was rock hard in Louis's hand. Louis suddenly felt powerful that he could reduce this man to a gasping heap, who had to lean, clutching at the sink. Jarred whimpered in his need. Louis smiled as he continued to torment Jarred. Louis tightly pulled his hand along his length, letting his thumb brush back and forth over the tip. Jarred felt himself slipping to the floor as great waves of pleasure ripped through his body. Louis helped him to pull his slick wet body into the shower and turned on the water. Backing Jarred up against the wall he plundered his mouth with his tongue while he ran his hands all over Jarred's hard muscular body. Jarred clutched at Louis pulling him as close as he could get. Louis grasped the soap and slicked up Jarred's body and his own. Roughly Louis dragged Jarred down so that their slippery bodies were free to wiggle and feel as much as they wanted. Louis waited until Jarred was swollen ready to burst, then he gently slid his fangs in for only a small taste as Jarred burst free and pleasure filled him. Louis sucked hard to bruise the skin around the bite marks, the dark mark hid the tiny puncture wounds. After their shared shower Jarred lay back on the couch, he was still tired from their adventures in the shower. Louis sat in the floor with his head laying against the couch. Louis was wearing an old set of Jarred's shorts and a tee shirt that totally engulfed him. He noticed the house looked unoccupied and was sparsely decorated. "Louis I think we need to talk about what we are to do to help you." Jarred was looking at the top of Louis's wet glistening hair as he spoke. He still could not believe what they had done earlier. He had never done this before. Guilt warred with the attraction he felt for Louis. Jarred felt he would give any thing to take the hurt Louis felt away , even though it was buried he could still feel it. "I really don't think we should do anything. I am regaining my memory a little each night and would prefer not to involve the authorities." Louis smiled up at him. "You are not in a hurry to get rid of me already hum?" Louis could not explain the tension as he waited for the reply. It occurred to Jarred that he could wait and enjoy Louis's company . "No. No there's no rush. We will do what ever you feel comfortable with. At least for now." Jarred was rewarded with seeing the light shine out of Louis's eyes. They spent the rest of the night in a companionable silence, watching TV, or chatting quietly. In Louis's confused state he never really considered that it should not have been possible to take that much blood from one human or the reason that Jarred asked no more questions about his past from that point forward. --------------------------------------------------------- 4 The next night Louis wakes up covered in blood sweat, he is shaken from the dream he just had. It involved a blond man who in his dream he loved dearly, but for some reason this man hurt him attacking both physically and verbally. As Louis lay catching his breath he heard noises of Jarred moving about in the other room. He decided to get up and shower. When he came out of the shower he found a stack of clothes in a chair by the door, pants, shirts, underwear, socks, shorts and shoes. Louis quickly dressed and left the room. He found Jarred in the living room watching TV. Louis could see that he had cleaned up, he thought that must have been the noise that he heard earlier. Louis walked on into the room to see that Jarred was watching The X-Files. When Louis came up behind him, he let his hand drop onto Jarred's shoulder. Jarred looked up and smiled into Louis's eyes. "Oh I see you found the clothes. Do they fit all right? I was unsure what to get so I picked up a few things. We can go to the store and get you whatever else you want and need after while." Jarred took Louis's hand and pulled him around to sit beside him on the couch. "That will be fine." Louis found himself staring into Jared's eyes, they looked like cats eyes golden in color with a long pupil, Louis did not realize that he had moved until he brushed Jarred's mouth with his own. Jarred returned the kiss and then much to Louis's surprise Jarred bared his throat for Louis. Before giving himself time to consider this, Louis leaned forward to drink. Jarred pulled him closer stroking his back till Louis had drunk his fill. Louis felt slightly dazed as he leaned back against the couch cushion. When he gazed at Jarred it suddenly hit him that this was wrong, there was only one set of marks on his neck and as Louis watched those faded away to leave him without blemish. Louis scanned his face looking for any sighs of paleness only to find nothing. Louis became uneasy as he recalled others dying from his hunger. Also there had been no images as he fed, but this man seemed unfazed by it. For the moments it took Louis to comprehend this Jarred had sat in silence looking at him kindly. "How?" was all Louis was able to get out. "Is that really important. Why don't we just say that as long as you chose to stay here, you can put all of your energy into finding Louis again. I will be glad to have you for as long as you want to stay." Jarred reached forward to pat Louis on the knee as he spoke. Louis could feel the loneliness in Jarred as he spoke and that hit a cord in his own soul. Since Jarred asked him no questions Louis decided to return the favor. To let Jarred know this he leaned forward to place a gentle kiss on Jarred's cheek. Jarred gave Louis a relieved grin and grabbed his hand. "Well lets go shopping and see if we can't make you comfortable ." Louis gave no resistance as he was lead from the house and out to the truck. They drove to the all night Wal~Mart to do their shopping. After Louis picked up his toilet supplies and a few more clothes, Jarred went to do his own shopping and Louis started looking around. Louis went from aisle to aisle just looking around every so often he would drop some thing in his buggy, until he came to the book section where Jarred found him 3 hours later reading titles. Jarred gave Louis's buggy a funny look when he saw it was filled to the rim with all sorts of different things and all was covered with a layer of books. Louis looked into Jared's buggy and saw that it held food, movies, sheets, towels and about every kind of candle imagined. Earlier while exploring the house Louis had noticed the abundant amount of candles , when he commented on this to Jarred , Jarred explained that since they lived so far from town he kept them in case the power failed. Louise had decided not to ask why they were all upstairs set up on the floor. "Well are we ready? Did you find every thing you wanted?" Jarred again gave the buggy a spectacle glance as he spoke. Louis did not feel self-conscious though because he could see Jarred was trying not to laugh as he looked between the 2 buggies. Between the 2 of them it appeared as though they planned to set up house for quite a while. Suddenly it occurred to Louis that this was the first time he had picked out what he wanted in a long, long time. As Jarred went toward the check out Louis decided he liked that, him deciding what he wanted. Though Louis could not say where that thought came from. On the way home they talked about nothing of importance and laughed at the shocked look that the clerk had worn when they had rolled up to her. After three trips to the truck they were unloaded and sat looking at the mountain of Wal~Mart bags that now covered the couch and the coffee table. Both were wondering where they would put it all. Jarred grabbed part of the food bags and headed for the kitchen asking Louis over his shoulder to bring the rest. As Jarred was putting the groceries away Louis took this time to examine what he ate. Louis was laughing when they finished. Every thing had been heat and serve or junk food. He decided that Jarred must not know how to cook. Going back into the living room they both sat in front of the over flowing coffee table and began digging through the bags. After taking out their personel items they sat looking at what was left: what-knots, linens, rugs, pictures, curtains, lamps, paint and some assorted brick a brack. Jarred looked and grinned at Louis. "I guess we were planning to decorate in ALA Wal~Mart." After they stopped giggling they began moving about hanging and placing every thing. Now it looked as though someone with questionable taste lived here, they retired to Louis's bedroom. Some time during the night, neither was sure when or how it had been decided that Jarred would move into this room and they would close off the upstairs. As they were preparing for bed Jarred told Louis he worked 1st shift so he would be here with him every night and could sleep before he got up. Jarred fell back on the bed and Louis dropped onto him. Louis felt comfortable and as though this was his place, deep down he knew that this happiness was something he was not used to feeling. He banished those thoughts as he settled into sleep with his new lover. They were happy together both reveling in the others company while being careful not to look to closely or to long at what had brought them together or the reasons they were together. --------------------------------------------------------- 5 Louis pushed away all thoughts of the past when memories would come up. He always looked away from them. Louis could not name his fear but deep down he was afraid that one day all his happiness would be ripped away though he could not say why he felt this way. Jarred was as equally quiet about his past, he did not talk at all about the time before Louis came. They lived as if their life had started together, nothing around them was over a few months old. Louis knew that Jarred went out during the day but like so much else they steered clear of that as well. They talked about politics, their dreams, the future they wanted together, but nothing of the past and anything that brought uncomfortable feelings was never mentioned again. Together they made a safe love filled world where only they existed. On this particular night Louis woke as the night came in. He stretched slowly, contentment surrounded him like a protective blanket. Louis lay listening to the sounds of Jarred humming as he worked. A few days earlier he had brought home an old four poster bed and now worked in the garage every evening to refinish it, it replaced the plain metal rails that had held their bed. No dreams woke Louis now, he had suffered horrible nightmares, the first few nights he had stayed with Jarred , before he successfully blocked them from his mind. Louis called to Jarred silently as he often did now it was so easy to find and touch the mind of his beloved. It only took a minute for Jarred to reach their room. He was grinning as he bent to press a kiss to Louis's up turned face. "Good morning angel." Jarred gently settled his weight beside Louis resting his head next to the black hair covering there pillow. Louis rose just enough to let the strong arms enwrap him. Warm golden eyes smiled down into Louis's shining green orbs. "It is now," Louis hugged his body tightly to Jarred as he spoke. Jarred suddenly rolled pinning Louis to the bed so he could tickle him, he so loved to hear that soft laugh. He felt more alive just hearing him. Their play slowly turned to more intimate touching. Before long they were both withering in ecstasy. After showering they decided to go out to a movie. After taking forever to dress each other they left. Once they took their seats neither watch the show preferring instead to spend the time holding hands and staring into each others eyes. It would have been a feat if ether could even remember the name of the movie. They left the theater hand in hand and wandered down the street lost in the joy of being together. So lost were they that neither noticed the amethyst eyes that followed them down the street. < Daniel > Daniel was stunned, it was hard to believe his own eyes. It was Louis walking wrapped around some man looking happier that Daniel had ever seen him. He was only a day out of New Orleans and yet the whole coven had looked without finding a trace of him. Every one thought he had either gone to ground or into the sun, what other explanation could there be for the most powerful to be unable to find the weakest.. He wondered what Lestat would say. He had been half out of his mind since Louis had left. As the two went on Daniel shadowed them , far enough away not to be noticed but close enough to hear what they said. Words of endearment, soft laughter, gentle touches, Daniel thought that no one could mistake them for any thing other than lovers. Never had he seen Louis like this, he had always shied away from any form of public affection, but now he was standing on the side walk with his tongue down that man's throat. Daniel could resist no longer. He had to find out how they had been blocked for so long. He let his mind reach out for Louis only to encounter a solid wall between them. As Louis pressed closer to his companion, the man raised his head to glare at Daniel. Daniel felt the emotions clearly though there were no words. The message was clear back off or be prepared to fight. Daniel stumbled back shocked at the pain that accompanied that message. Even Marius was nowhere near that strong, fear whipped through Daniel as he watched them walk to a truck, Louis's companion made sure without being obvious that Louis never once saw Daniel. Daniel left for New Orleans as fast as possible. He had to tell the others. That would be easily done. They all congregated around Lestat trying to keep him out of trouble . --------------------------------------------------------- 6 No one bothered to notice Daniel when he entered the room. They were all too busy arguing with Lestat. Daniel did not even wait to find out what they were griping about this time. They were all here and that was all he wanted. "I found Louis." He was left facing four silent vampires after that comment. The air rushed out of Daniel's body as Lestat slammed him into the far wall. "Where is he," Lestat shouted into his face. Daniel wondered how long it would take him to realize he had to breathe to speak, which was impossible with Lestat's hand wrapped around his throat. After the others dragged Lestat off him and he had a moment to catch his breath he told them what he had seen. Again he had to wait while the others all fought with Lestat, who had gone quite mad at hearing Louis was with another man. After Lestat stopped screaming they all fired questions at Daniel. Where was he, Who was this man, How was Louis, When could they leave to get him, the last came from Lestat of course. Daniel could only repeat that the man had saw him and that he felt him to be stronger that Marius if not stronger than any of the others even the oldest twins. Lestat wanted to comb the area until Louis was found and forced to return home with him. Of course they all soon realized that they had gone this long without finding him there was no way to do so now. It was decided that in the evening they would all go to search for him. Lestat went to his study to be alone and think. The others sat in the living room and watched his retreating back with sympathy. As he sits alone in the dark room , he had not bothered to turn on the lights , he relives the events of the last few days. He is appalled and shocked at what he has done .Lestat just sits and lets the memories wash over him. *The night after David had left , Lestat could not stand not seeing his beautiful fledgling. And so had went to his room. He did not know what had over come him , he had violated Louis's privacy unable to stop himself from undressing and touching his beautiful one. The cruel words he had used haunted him still. The fight after Louis had came in left him in shock never had he thought to treat Louis so. Lestat could not remember where all the anger had come from. On waking the only thing left was a sick feeling in his stomach. Of course he had started to look for Louis at once. Only to discover he can find no trace of him. So he calls the others , what other choice did he have. Lestat though deeply depressed at Louis's disappearance still can not stop a tiny smile at the situations he had found his friends in. Armand and Daniel had been in an intimate embrace. .They were both excited and half mad with lust. While they were lost in the throes of passion Lestat takes a moment to feel over active emotions. After only a moment. He gets caught by Armand who is not offended but excited by this and in this mood agrees to see Lestat not knowing the situation. Poor Daniel has been left to lay unattended on the bed all during this , it only takes a moment for Armand to reestablish the mood though. Lestat has to take a minute to control his emotions before calling to David. Lestat gets a shock when he calls David, Marius is with him Both Marius and David are a little apprehensive as to how Lestat will react when they tell him they have been lovers since David left, this leaves Lestat quite speechless .Marius has to mentally shake Lestat to wake him up, They are playing chess at David's manor ...David had met Marius shortly on arriving in England. Marius had left for a bit to give Armand and Daniel some time alone. He found their rough play not to his liking. Lestat finds they have been inseparable for the last few days. Feeling relieved that Lestat is taking this so well they agree to help Lestat.* Tears fill his eyes as his head swims with thoughts of Louis and the way he drove him away. Lestat sits alone until he is forced to run for shelter from the rising sun. Images of his beautiful one swirl in his brain as the death sleep takes him. --------------------------------------------------------- 7 Louis woke to a headache he felt as though hands were pushing at his head from all sides trying to get in. The feeling soon passed, shortly after Jarred came into the room. Jarred sat on the side of the bed facing the wall away from Louis. "I have to tell you some thing. Please let me finish before you say anything." After taking a deep breath Jarred told Louis that for the last two months he had blocked the past and the calls of those who loved him. "I only wanted to love you. I know that you will leave me soon." Tears filled his eyes as they met the confusion in Louis's "as soon as I let go." In a flash Louis felt a lifetime of memories assail him add to that the press of four very powerful vampires crowding in and blackness over took Louis. Louis woke to silence. He knew that once more Jarred had blocked all the others out. Only his memories were left to deal with. Louis raised his eyes to look at Jarred , he made it only up to his shirt front." Why? Tell me why you did this. " Louis was not able to keep the pain out of his voice as he spoke. Jarred starts off slowly. He is hesitant and fearful of Louis's reaction ."Well to start with .I am around 8000 years old. I am what you would call a sorcerer I guess that is the closest human word to describe my people. Our life style is a lot like humans only we age about 1 year to every 350 a normal human does. Also we can control the objects and people in our environment ,that is the only way we can hide from human view. Normally we live together in small groups , but I decided to go it on my own for awhile, I got tired of having to do as the others wanted and went off on my own for a time. Thats how I came across you .I was in wandering around New Orleans one night when I saw you and 2 other out I noticed that you were different but I could not tell why so I watched you all for a time to find out what made you feel so different." Jarred slips in to the memories of the past as he speaks. * Jarred had seen Louis , Lestat , and David in New Orleans and had watched them for a time curious as to what they were. He was intrigued by their grace and beauty, he would follow them to operas , plays , and to clubs they visited. Before long he was able to piece together what they were and their relation ship to each other. Part of his information came from observation and the rest he got from dipping into the minds when they were caught up in some activity. Lestat he took to be selfish and controlling of the others. Jarred felt he did not care much for that one , he seemed to not care what the other 2 wanted, only himself. David was the most mature of the bunch but, even though he had a great admiration and affection for his companions , he was not truly in love with either of them. Louis was the one who caught his attention , he sensed the hurt and loneliness that hung on his slight frame , he knew that Louis loved Lestat but that he also felt fear and uncertainly where his maker was concerned. Once he had watched them for a couple of weeks Jarred found that he had begun to resent Lestat`s treatment of this dark headed beauty. Lestat showed little kindness and much sarcasm in his dealings with Louis . The more Jarred watched the more it seemed to him that Lestat used Louis to appease his sexual wants and discarded him when some one else happened to hold the slightest attraction . Jarred had come to realize that this came from his own attraction to Louis and was not totally the case. During the fight Jarred had taken the chance to step in. he had helped Lestat's anger to grow , causing him to become enraged. Later he had strengthened Louis's resolve to leave , making Lestat`s words more true to Louis and helping to dismiss all the excuses Louis thought up to forgive Lestat. He wanted to get to know Louis more , and saw this as a way to help Louis. To his mind he was doing Louis a favor by helping him to escape Lestat`s constant control. It was only later that he realized that already he was a little infatuated with Louis and that was the reason Lestat looked so bad to him. Once Louis had left he caused the confusion and loss of memory in Louis. When Louis was completely with out memory Jarred stepped in to take Louis away. At first he had wanted only to give Louis the chance to be what and who he wanted , with out the need and guilt of the hunt or the controlling influence of those around him. Once he was close enough to look into Louis deep green eyes his heart and good intentions were lost. Love for Louis had grown in his heart and blocked out all rational thought until seeing Daniel had shocked him back to reality. He threatened to hurt Daniel if he did not leave. Jarred had realized the others would be looking for Louis and that it was unfair to do this to Louis and decided to tell him the truth. After all was he not doing to Louis the very thing that he thought he disliked Lestat for. Jarred knew he must release Louis and allow him to make his own choice, even though he knew that Louis would never love another as he loved Lestat. Even with his incredible powers it had taken all of Jarred's strength to block out Louis's need for Lestat. It had been days of hardest concentration to stop the constant dreams of Lestat and only his envelopment had made them appear as nightmares. * After the telling Jarred stood before Louis in the realization of what he had done to Louis shaming and sickening him. "There is only a little time left till they get here. If you want me to leave, I will. You never have to see me again if you don't want to. I love you dearly but I don't want to bother you if you don't want me." Huge tears fell wetting Jarred's shirt. Louis had to lift his head to look into his eyes, any anger he felt disappeared when he saw the love and pain staring back at him. Slowly Louis pressed a kiss to Jarred's face. "I will always love you and the time we had together. "Louis knew he had no other choice than to let Jarred go Lestat would kill him given half a chance. The only way to protect him was to let him go. Deep down Louis wondered if Lestat could hurt Jarred , he pushed that thought away the only way he could handle Lestat was if he gave him his full attention and he knew that would never happen with Jarred around. He just loved him to much. "But promise me that I will see you again , that you will not make all we had disappear as if it were a dream. "Louis knew that no matter how wrong Jarred had been that he wanted to remember what they had shared. "I will leave a way for you to find me if you need or want to "Jarred could not stop the catch in his voice as he took one last long look into the eyes that had stolen his heart and soul. Finally he forced him self to turn and walk away even though it felt as though a hand was tearing open his chest so as to rip his heart out. Louis watched as Jarred turned and left the room. Silence filled the house after the sound of the truck leaving had faded. Louis sat hard on the edge of the bed as he did so he saw a package laying on the side table. Louis lifted it holding the weight gently in his hand. Pain of losing a friend filled his heart as Louis opened the last gift Jarred had left him. Inside was a pendent made of silver with a large emerald and a tiger's eye in the center. The note with it said only that if he ever wanted to talk he had only to whisper to him in his dreams and he would come wherever and whenever he was needed. Louis clasp the chain around his neck just as the door flew off its hinges and he was crushed to Lestat. Louis sank into his true love with the knowledge that he now had someone in the world to turn to if he ever had need. Louis refused to answer the question the other plied him with saying only that he wanted to be with Lestat and in their home. Louis was a little surprised when Lestat agreed to this until later he realized that Lestat had been totally devastated by his leaving and that he also only wanted to be alone together. It did not surprise Louis when later he was told that David and the others could find no trace of who Louis's lover had been or where he had come from or gone to. Sometimes when he fought with Lestat, Louis would slip off alone and call I love you, the love and affection that covered him like a protective blanket always came, and thoughts of soft love-filled golden eyes gave him the comfort he had never known. Lestat never asked Louis about the time when he had been away. On the night Louis had returned Lestat had found more truth then he had ever wanted when Louis allowed him to take his blood. Though he knew that he held Louis's love ,he also knew that another had almost stolen it away. That one thought he refused to look at and so he acted as if the whole thing had never happened.. And Louis , out of consideration to Lestat ,never told him of the house decorated in Wal~Mart style that would always be waiting for him to come home. --------------------------------------------------------- THE END eventually, he laughed so hard, he fell out of the bed and onto the floor, and still he laughed. Lestat began to giggle, and quickly lost control himself, and pounde#MNN@d--zNEpdpddespite the fact that the handsome prince couldnt comprehend why Louis had to read such deep, heavy books : "Good night, Lestat. And move over." : : THE END Father of Lies, you have the kind of sense of humour that makes me smile, but then you know how my mind works, so I'm not sure if that's a compliment! *grin* Beverley --------------------------------------------------------- Follow Ups: --------------------------------------------------------- Post a Followup Name: E-Mail: Subject: Comments: Optional Link URL: Link Title: Optional Image URL: --------------------------------------------------------- [ Follow Ups ] [ Post Followup ] [ Forum Main Page ] [ FAQ ] h=ncǃdt =nc --------------------------------------------------------- [ Follow Ups ] [ Post Followup ] [ Forum Main Page ] [ FAQ ] --------------------------------------------------------- Posted by La Femme Chris on July 26, 1998 at 12:41:47: In Reply to: SILLY SPEC - A Fractured Bedtime Story (conclusion) posted by Father of Lies on July 26, 1998 at 11:50:17: I am glad you posted this today - I needed to lighten-up! *LOL* I enjoyed the irony of both Louis and Lestats fractured bedtime stories... *smiles* Chris --------------------------------------------------------- Follow Ups: --------------------------------------------------------- Post a Followup Name: E-Mail: Subject: Comments: Optional Link URL: Link Title: Optional Image URL: --------------------------------------------------------- [ Follow Ups ] [ Post Followup ] [ Forum Main Page ] [ FAQ ] WS\media\Robotz Restore Down.wavM --------------------------------------------------------- [ Follow Ups ] [ Post Followup ] [ Forum Main Page ] [ FAQ ] --------------------------------------------------------- Posted by Monique Michelle on July 26, 1998 at 13:41:59: In Reply to: SILLY SPEC - A Fractured Bedtime Story (conclusion) posted by Father of Lies on July 26, 1998 at 11:50:17: *laughting so hard she nearly falls off her chair* Good god you have a refressing sence of humor, a delightful story to read. I look forword to seeing your other works. -Monique Michelle --------------------------------------------------------- Follow Ups: --------------------------------------------------------- Post a Followup Name: E-Mail: Subject: Comments: Optional Link URL: Link Title: Optional Image URL: --------------------------------------------------------- [ Follow Ups ] Ͻ--------------34196A037A6F--